Reflexive Professional Appraisal
For the past three years in university, and beyond that. I've been making. Whether it is painting, drawing, film, music, it has been creative in and out of education. I'm finally exiting university, leaving education behind forever. But who am I? After being defined by education with tasks and submissions for modules. I ask who am I without education? Whats my temperament when it comes to work after the boundaries have been taken away? These questions make me reflect back on Sense 8's scene 'Who Am I' and understanding different humans traits yet how inspiring it can be. So in this post, I'm going to analyse myself, honestly as I can.
To start analysing myself, I've taken a personality test to understand myself. The personality type I received was 'ENFJ-A / ENFJ-T' which is a protagonist. It states 'Protagonists are natural-born leaders, full of passion and charisma. Forming around two percent of the population, they are oftentimes our politicians, our coaches and our teachers, reaching out and inspiring others to achieve and to do good in the world'. I do agree with this statement, I do see myself helping others, within the workplace and studies. I specialise in production, directing and editing roles within film, which translates to heavily leadership based roles. Also within the personality test, it states 'Protagonists are true team players, and they recognise that that means listening to other peoples’ opinions, even when they contradict their own. They admit they don’t have all the answers, and are often receptive to dissent, so long as it remains constructive.', I completely agree with this statement, and it translates into my skills to direct a crew and cast.
At the beginning of my university career, I was rather introverted rather than extroverted. This has changed drastically, Media and Film production has turned me into a person that is friendlier, more open to conversation and idea collaboration. I think that is the most positive change in my personality, over the few years i've spent in my degree education, which is priceless. I see my temperament as incredibly honest and pedantic, which is what a director should be. My eye for detail may be trained too harshly, but that allows my productions to be of high quality. I think this also translates into my passion for filmmaking in general, as when it comes to idea generation, I tend to have a clear vision and I don't intend to drop it until the desired shots are taken. Although this may come as a negative in some cases, I see this as a positive within the media sector of workplace that I'm putting myself into. A negative example would be the inability to settle, I do have to state my expectations and desire of life, in general, are rather high, although that allows me to become driven and ambitious for my lifestyle and career. A consequence of my high expectations would be anxiety when it comes to production days, as I don't want to come away from the shoot without the film aesthetic.
As I'm analysing myself, the biggest question I'm trying to answer is. Where am I going?
I don't know the answer. However, I do know I'm more than confident in my ability to thrive in my media career. I know that may sound rather arrogant, but I see it as confidence. I personally believe in myself, as I've described before. I know I will develop and learn new skills by my colleagues and through watching and breathing media, my passion. I can honestly say, I am too excited for the future and the new productions to come.
With all that in mind, looking into the future I desire to continue to create passionately. I see fashion as a career path into the media industry for myself, however, I also see filmmaking as a strong contender. I do enjoy and am drawn to fashion and appearance in general, my ability and skills to create on brand videos which are current definitely has improved over my university career, as i've created three fashion films and I hope it continues to improve. I do have to look back at my lifestyle, in order to understand where this personality trait has come from. From a young age, my lifestyle was of a good quality, and my parents always cared for their own appearance and encouraged me to do the same. Obviously this has played in a part for my desire to make fashion films as a part of my work.
As an individual, I feel a great deal of pride sharing stories that may be small, but should be shared. Looking back to the personality test I took earlier, it states ''When it comes to finding a career, people with the Protagonist personality type cast their eyes towards anything that lets them do what they love most – helping other people! Lucky for them, people like being helped, and are even willing to pay for it, which means that Protagonists are rarely wanting for inspiration and opportunity in their search for meaningful work'. As this is a general suggestion for career options, it is open to interpretation however I think and emphasise on 'meaningful work', I do have to agree with this personality typing. As I strongly believe that when a film or production becomes tedious, it becomes wrong.
Overall upon reflection, although some of my characteristics may be strong, I consider myself better from my degree education, through my growing personality, transferable skills and I look forward to bettering myself in the future with my career. Also my attitude towards learning new information is going to help me grow my personality and skillset in order to become a more rounded professional within my craft, taking on new roles within filmmaking and media commercial uses. My passion for filmmaking is going to keep me driven towards striving to make new stories, some small, some big, but always bettering myself and my pieces through improving production values and making new connections within the industry not only to be successful but out of pure engagement with the medium that is film.